The Intelligent Heart, The Pure Heart


Book Review :)

I am in love with this book,
the words really touch my heart.
So,
I guess I should share with all of you 
the concluding remarks of the book :)

Human beings are comprised of
body and soul.
The body represents the terrestrial aspect of humans
whereas the soul is the celestial aspect.
The point where the two meet
is the human heart.

In other words,
the heart acts as a window
between the earthly and the heavenly.

In Islam,
the heart has always been regarded
as an organ of intelligence,
capable of understanding.

In order to achieve
salvation in the Hereafter,
the heart must be purified
from spiritual blemishes.

According to the Islamic approach,
the mind and heart,
body and soul all work in unison,
not independently of each other.

This book has emphasised
the importance of the science of tazkiyyah,
the purification of the heart,
in this age of materialism
where the emphasis is on the brain.

In order to be complete
as human beings,
we must recognise and accept
the importance of the heart's wisdom
 together with the intellect of the brain.

When we trivialise the role and function
of the heart in our lives,
then we end up with a very
limited view of the world
as if we have only one eye.

However,
when our heart and brain waves
act in synchrony,
our thoughts become more focused and rational.
We need to have
our hearts and brains in order,
because that is the balance of batin and zahir.

Finally,
we need to always remember
the words of the Prophet Muhammad SAW:

Indeed there is in the body a piece of flesh
which it is sound then the whole body is sound,
and if it is corrupt then the whole body is corrupt.
Indeed it is the heart.
(Bukhari and Muslim)


Asia's Next Top Model 3

I cried watching 
the final episode of
Asia's Next Top Model Cycle 3!

I'm never a big fan
of Asia's Next Top Model,
especially not when there're
14 of models competing each other,
so many hatred, jealousy etc.

So,
I decided to watch the final episode ONLY.

And guess who won?
Ganiiiii from Indonesia!!

Hahaha well I am not a big fan of her tho,
but she inspires me so much.

Alex Peter, one of the judges
claimed that she has everything that
a model needs,
except for HEIGHT!

People,
I mean HEIGHT is always a problem
in today's society, which I don't get it whyyyyy?!

I am so pissed off especially
when people discriminate me because of my height,
underestimate me, and doubt me
because I don't look like a 20-year-old lady.

Nayyy *finger snapping on your face*
I can do so much more and better 
than you do!

Never underestimate the power of a short girl!

And Gani has proven to the whole world,
that short girl can be a model!

No, don't get me wrong,
I do not want to be a model,
(but for Fashion Valet can teheee)
but I just want the whole world
to know that
Short people are equally good as the tall ones!
Never be height-ist nor size-ist!
Treat everyone like how you want them to treat you.

Thank you :)

ps, it's scientifically proven that short girls
are more attractive than anyone else ;)
*blow my nails*


It Started Off With Hatred 2.0

If you haven't read the first part, you better do hehe : Part 1

Okay so,
the second part is about this big change in my life,
lol yeah I know you know.

Qim haha,
I hated him, 
like really hated him.

I mean,
I didn't know him in person that time,
I just heard from a few friends,
telling me he's so smart,
but at the same time,
he's so ugh-kind of guy.

Well yeah,
he's so ugh when I saw him.
*ugh = poyo

I still remember the firsssst time 
I saw him, at a camp
where we both attended.
We had to rearrange chairs
and I was standing right next to him
and I wanted to pass chairs to him
and I bet his mind was somewhere else
that time, so I had to call his name.

"Azmi!"

And he was so surprised.
His surprised face made me feel
like I'd called him with a wrong name.

Was he not Azmi?
The Azmi that my friends were talking about!
Was he not the one?!

That's such an embarrassment if he's not
because I was full of confidence,
calling him that.

But I knew,
I was right.

I don't like it that much 
if I've known someone and he ignores me!!!

I mean, 
hello, a simple smile and a hi would be okay!
I had called your name! 
(Don't get me wrong, I didn't have crush on him that time, 
he's not the type-of-guy-I-thought-I-would-fall-for ugh haha)

The camp was held for five days,
but nothing happened, really.

Till this one particular moment
when one of the people in charge for the camp
asked the participants her name.

I mean,
I knew that person's name, but not full name
because she was once a teacher at my school.

So she asked everyone,
none could answer it.

It's typical Malaysians' attitude, 
we don't answer questions when they're asked,
I mean, not in public :P

So she started to point out people.
And the lucky one is this boy HAHA.

 Kesiaaaan :P

His seat was behind mine
and so as a girl who knew his name,
I wanted to help,
so I turned to him and started giving him
sign language,
but we both didn't turn on the telepathy mode,
so yeah,
the message wasn't received successfully.

So she called the other person, Amir
his friend and he too couldn't answer that.

Then the next participant chosen
was ME.

Ugh. This couldn't be it.
I knew I was right,
but not entirely right ughhh

So, tetttttt
I didn't get it entirely right 
and Seri was called next;
we both failed.

But this woman noticed something.
Seri's seat was close to Amir's
and mine was in front of Qim's.

So she was assuming us having something 
but we clearly had zero interest towards each other, 
geezz never!

After the 'lecturing' session,
the good and guilty me 
(cause I was almost right hehe)
went to see the woman,
and so did Qim.
After I salaamed her
then she asked me
was there anything going on
between me and him
and I totally denied that.

She continued,
"Haa mana la tahu if ada apa-apa,
nanti jangan lupa jemput saya :P"

Maaaan,
 hahaha was she a gypsy?!

We (me and Qim)
did talk a bit but it ended there,
at the camp.

3 months later,
he started to text me.
That's how everything started.

But Qim and I, 
we had a very complicated story
and the love-hate relationship
continued for a long time!

Till now forever :P

He can make me hate him
and love him at the same time.
Crazy boy.

Well, I called him Peter Pan because....

to be continued :)




It started off with hatred 1.0

Never hate someone,
you will end up loving that person.

I refused to agree with that statement,
till it happened to me,
for a lot of times!

I thought it would happen only once!
But it turned out to be happening
for 10000000 times! Ugh scary.

It started with my childhood friend,
Marina.
I used to dislike her because
she's so garang, as class assistant,
cause she would straight away write down
our names, on the board....

Remember the L & P table,
even the slightest move will
be considered as a crime!

But one thing about her,
she treated everyone equally,
favouritism wasn't her thing.

Since then,
we became best friends.
I told her all my lol funny stories
and she's incredibly funny too!
So much of laughter with that girl :D

Back then in high school,
the first week in SSP,
I had to go through orientation week.
And I was in the same group with
this girl who had a sister in that school too,
and I just couldn't accept it!
So I kinda disliked that girl haha
and she turns (still) out to be my ultimate
best friend!
Hi Amelia!

The next following week,
I got to know this brilliant girl,
who also had a sister in that school.
I didn't know much about her,
but people kept on telling bad things
about her to me,
and I was too naive that time, and
I believed them ugh.
But she's not the kind of person
I thought she was
And guess who is she?
Now she's my one in a million.
She's Edda!

Another miracle happened
when I was in Form 4.
PRS team,
Trisyia, Feeza, Edda and me
we had to compete in this one
competition that required us
to edit a video.
And so we borrowed Farahain's laptop
because all of us didn't
bring laptops to school.
But we didn't know how,
her laptop went jammed
and the only way to fix this
was by resetting the laptop
which will cause all her data
to be deleted!
Farahain is a drama girl,
korean drama kinda girl
and she has (still, till now)
every of Korean dramas
and all the music videos
and she lost all of her gems
because of us!!!
I bet she hated us (me) so much!

But since that moment,
we became best friends,
she's my happiness and joy!
She is the girl full of laughters!
But when she cried because of her losing
k-pop stuff,
I knew that she's damn sad!

So basically,
those are how great friendships start :)


How to sleep?

I've trouble sleeping nowadays.
I sleep early and will always wake up at 2am
then I will be wide awake at 4am
then I will realise that I'm late for Subuh cause
it's 7.00am already then I have to recover my sleeping time
so I sleep till 9-ish.
But there'll be time I feel extra energetic to not sleep back
after subuh and do the zumba dance
and sleep back at 10am.

My sleeping cycle is crazy.
Maybe it's because there's
this side of me that feel guilty for this
not-doing-anything holiday, I feel weird. Haha
#IBEffect

My routine also differs.
I paint sometimes,
I do some crafty stuff then
I will blog or I will read.

I don't know what else to do.

Till at one point,
I do not know how to sleep well.

Life is pretty weird these days.
I need to do something useful.

Would I Date Someone I Don't Know?


Let me press the rewind button
and try to be in the year 2010.

15, yeah I was 15 that time.

And if I were to ask myself,
would I date someone I don't know?

The answer would and will always be no.

(The reason why do I press the rewind
button is because it's totally illogical if I were to ask
myself that question now, haha you got me, right?)

I've read the news and seen videos
of people wanting to go to a blind date,
meeting their Facebook friends etc ;
well I've seen a successful marriage
of couple who met each other through Facebook,
so the argument saying Facebook is all bad,
is totally not true.

But my point is,
if you ever plan to date
someone you don't know,
please bring 5 friends at least to accompany you.

People can falsify their identities
and even if you've known someone
for a long time, there's also
devil that may whisper to their ears
and do something bad to you.

I used to complain all the time,
why does my dad prohibit me
from going out a lot.
Now, I know why.
I mean, before this I know la the reasons,
but it's just that, now, I know better.
Yeah, I love you too, ayah.
Thank you for protecting me,
all the time.

And watching all those series
like criminal minds, csi and hawaii five-o
make me feel more scared.

Especially knowing the fact that
I'm going to Canada soon, a foreign country
where I know nothing about, have zero contacts etc.

(Well, that's the kind of doa. I'm still waiting for
my result. IB result, wuuu scary right?)

So, I won't date someone I don't know alone.
And today, i won't date anyone else except for that
one playful boy who is very patient in
dealing with the very mengada and annoying me.

Thank you to that one wonderful person haha ly.



Expectations

I think in my previous blog,
I've mentioned about expectations
for several times.

I was scared about people's expectation
on me, like a lot.

It's scary when I feel more afraid
of not keeping up to people's
expectation than mine.

I mean, did I live to impress people? Ugh.
That's so silly of me for doing that.

But like it or not,
today's society is somewhat like that.

I've overheard people
fighting over who got more likes
after posting the same exact picture.

I've seen people
lying about their academic results
because they want to look
good in public.

I've read also read Yuna's
statement in justifying her right
when people condemn about her fashion.
I second her.

You see,
she's doing the right thing
and we've never faced the
kind of questions, obstacles
that she has to go through
when she's performing
in the states. But the society
kept on complaining about her.

It saddens me when my own people,
the Malays are spending more time
on Facebook, expressing their hatred
speech, spreading lies (fitnah) here and there,
making so much of speculation
till it may create chaos and may jeopardise
the peacefulness of Malaysia;
it's ridiculous.

Not to forget, those who are being
sickly ungrateful for the good things
they enjoy today.

People keep on wanting and asking
for more, but we all tend to forget
how to be grateful and thankful for
what we have now.

Do we expect so much in life?
I bet yes.
Sometimes I expect so much in life.

I expect my life will be all about
happiness, yadayadayada, no problems,
free from tears, but no.

I'm afraid to live in today's world.
I feel that I am no longer in safe world.

Oh yeah.
I don't talk about what I plan to.
Whatevs.



Comet

"Like a blazing comet, I've traversed infinite nights,
 interstellar spaces of the imagination, voluptuousness 
and fear."


Comet is a brilliant movie,
it's not a typical love story where
you think it will be a very happy ending
story.
No, there's no ending in fact.
It's like a painting.
The dialog in the movie
has perfectly quoted the plot of 
this movie.
There's no beginning, in the middle
and no ending; like a painting.

And so I wonder,
why does the director 
name the movie as Comet?

I mean, yeah there's this part
where they first met each other
at a so-called comet show and 
what not but why comet?

And so, I've found the quote I've written
earlier.

That quote suits the movie well.

The guy in the movie has so much
of his own theories,
theories about everything that happen 
in life.
And he's scared, of reality.
In his words,
he has so much fear especially when he
decides to be in relationship
cause he doesn't believe in love.
He feels love isn't real.
But after knowing this girl
he feels that life is not real
without it.

Fear.
We're always scared of something.
Sometimes we feel scared if we lose something
we like, or someone we love.
We're scared of not getting what we want.
I feel scared, all the time.
Of not getting what I want, 
of losing someone I love.
Yeah I am scared.

But if I try to chill a bit,
and think straight,
then I will remind myself
that everything has been 
planned by Allah.

He is the best planner,
so we shall not be scared.
Everything will be alright :)


Red Velvet :D

I've been craving for red velvet,
but I don't want to get it from
Secret Recipe because it doesn't
taste like Muzfira's mom's red velvet.

So I decided to bake by myself,
and Tika and Ina also agreed to help me
so we baked!

I got my recipe from Syamsina's blog :D

and tararaaaaa this is our cake!

Did I tell you that we baked two cakes??

this is the second one!


But the ingredients were improvised here and there
and I told tikaa that we're not only physically tired,
but mentally tired too! because we had to do like
red velvet cake equation (the improvised version :P)
So hard you know!

But the cake tastes good, I'm impressed!
Because I thought it will taste bad, but no hahahha

So I have my own
theory of life here.

In life,
we have so many obstacles,
so many tests that we have to go through
and we're given or we have the ingredients
to make our own cake (create our own happiness in life),
but what happens during the baking process (in life)
will be very unpredictable,
and somehow you need to proceed with
your own recipe to make your own cake,
as long as the cake still taste like cake, right?

And with patience and determination
as your additional spices,
your cake can be the most delicious cake
you've ever tasted!
(Never count others' opinions,
cause if you do, you might end up
never baking again, trust me!)

So philosophical, haha.



When I live without twitter

A few months back,
I decided to deactivate my twitter acc,
and it stated that if I didn't reactivate
my acc within one month,
my acc will be terminated.

Then I left it for haha 6 months already.
So I am completely twitter-less.

Not becoming part of twitworld makes me
so much of an ignorant girl.

I don't know much about any current issues
or what's on trending
or even the news about Zayn Malik leaving 1D
was known few days after that haha, so lame I know.

But without twitter,
I think I've saved most of my time,
from scrolling things on my phone
cause now I'm left only with tumblr and instagram.

Without twitter,
I don't see hatred expressions
or people act like they know everything
about life and economics on my timeline.
I don't witness stupid action that is made viral
and I don't observe keyboard warriors
criticising every single thing that happens on the Earth
as if they were to rule the world,
they could have done way better, ugh.

Because of the existence of those people,
I decided to escape the world
and so a question is raised,
why instagram?

I choose to stay on instagram
because I can witness places
that I've never been to because my friends are
going for vacation there.
(I never feel these people are boasting or anything,
I simply enjoy every of their pictures :D )

I choose to stay on instagram
because I can witness people's
achievement and feel happy for them :)

I choose to stay on instagram
because I can do online shopping
in a very convenient wayy haha
and all of these great things
can only be observed if
I choose to ignore all the
negative comments from haters
on celebrities' pictures.

I don't wanna say it's typical human for
expressing their sincere thought till it hurts some parties.
No.

I just feel that those people
never try to put themselves
in others' shoes.
What a shame.

All in all,
I feel okay living without twitter
and this doesn't
work on everyone,
and I'm more impressed
with some people
who're protected from
social media's bane.





10 things about me (lol)

The other day I asked Qim to
describe ten things about me.

Oh well I can't remember them all,
I mean, yeah I know it's me but
I just can't really differentiate
between his descriptions and the real me
because they're all so true!

But I'm impressed
with his 10th point (or 9th, can't remember! ugh)

He said that,
I'm a determined girl But I've changed a bit.

He continued;

Usually I would do something
for the sake of others' happiness
or to satisfy other people
or in a very ugh way to say it is (I hate to admit this);
to please everyone.

But now, I've changed.
I do things to satisfy my inner need,
to feed my soul and most of the time,
because I know this is what Allah wants
me to do.

He's right.

I think I've changed and
I should celebrate my small 'transformation' haha
because now I'm less scared of my future,
and more carefree (not entirely carefree, cause I'm still
that overthinking kind of girl).

I got his point.
He's making a great job at observing *claps*
especially on things I don't expect him to
pay attention to.
(Guys' definition of important is different from girls' y'know)

I think it's the kind of thing that I need to
continue doing,
and biggest thanks to my parents
for always reminding me
about the nature of Qada' and Qadr.
Allah has perfectly planned everything for me :)

I just need to work hard and put more efforts
to have a brighter future and may all my efforts
be the merits for me to attain the ultimate victory ;
to bring my whole family and me (and Qim ofc) into Jannah,
insyaAllah.

*so much of Qim i know.
*maybe because it's so easy to type his name Q-I-M
*and so easy to be remembered too!
*that's why I can't get him off my mind
(omg is that a pickup line? wow I'm kinda good at this hahahahaha)

Movie Review : PK

Well, yesterday we decided to watch PK, a hindustani movie.
One of the actors is Aamir Khan.
It's such a wonderful movie,
I've heard a lot of my friends suggesting me that movie
and (after IB) then only I got to watch it, with my family.

No, no.
I can't provide you with the summary cause you just have to watch it
to feel it!

But I like the idea of the movie.
Y'know, we're always taught to find the
theme of novel that we read back in KMB,
and all the questions that were raised
in the novel etc.

I think that soft skill is very useful
to be applied in real life.
Watching movie will definitely be a waste of time
if you just spend your two hours looking
at the screen without getting the
important message that the director wants us to understand.

And so,
what I like about the movie?

I like the idea of searching for the right religion.
Indeed, religion is a hope
that it teaches how to hold on to something
certain, God.
We have so many religions in the world
and we're the ones that decide which
religion should we believe in.
It's an individual right indeed.
But what can I assure you is that,
search for religion that teaches you peace,
forgiveness and humility.
The religion that doesn't want to destroy another religion
and believe in fate and destiny.
I've found one, I'm sure you do too!

In every religion, I believe, none
of them teaches people to fight or have war.
Same goes to Islam.
Islam never teaches its people to do that either,
therefore, if there's war between Muslims,
do not blame the religion nor the rest of the populace
who believe in Islam,
because we cannot label people based on
the minority. We cannot label people.

To be born as a Muslim, is a gift
but to die as a Muslim, is an achievement.

When we're born, never for once,
we have any mark on our body,
what religion should we believe in.
Instead, the people around us that
shape our thoughts and influence our hearts
towards a particular religion.
Because there's no specific mark on our body,
we tend to differentiate one religion with another
through their appearances.
Muslim women, wear hijab.
Muslim men, grow beard.
Then everyone who wears hijab or grows beard will
be labelled as terrorist (?). What nonsense is that.

Cause truth is, any girl could wear hijab, any guy could grow beard.
People can falsify our perception based on their appearances,
thus it's a major mistake to automatically condemn a religion
as easy as that.

Because anyone could claim himself as Muslim and
jeopardise Islam, for the sake of his hatred towards that religion.

It's human logic that some people lack nowadays.
Just think about what's right and what's wrong.
Stop blaming other people and start looking
and seeking for the truth.

If everyone believes in his own religion,
and practice it without harming others,
peace can be achieved throughout the world.
No more war, no more genocide.

I may sound bias but it's my responsibility
to stand for my brothers and sisters
who lost their families and live in fears for every second
because of the mistake that they've never made.
I'm protecting the innocences and I wish the world
to be a better place,
for everyone regardless of what religion we believe in.

I know,
we all can make a change.

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When In Johor

Two of my batch mates told me
that they're about to engage in Johor
because they thought that the
celebration in Johor would be merrier
than any other states, so what I heard.

The dress code was red,
wow I've never attended
any engagement ceremony
where people would wear red,
seems like CNY celebration!
Haha

So,
when I was there,
I was impressed with the
celebration, it was so different
that the ones celebrated in Malacca.

Out of sudden,
my friends came to me
and told me that there'll
be three couples in this ceremony
yet all I knew were only two of them.

And they asked me to change my dress,
because I was the third one to be engaged.
Wait! Qim didn't tell me anything about it!
This can't be a surprise,
no, this can't be.

Then I saw my so-called future husband
from afar,
no he had no Qim's figure or whatsoever.
Then I was forced to change immediately,
so I walked to my room (at one of the Johor's hotel)
Oh yeah, the ceremony was held at a hall,
floating hall (dewan terapung, like restrain terapung lol)

On my way to the room,
I cried, like so hard.
I ran to my mum,
I just couldn't believe that
everything was planned and
arranged.

I immediately called Qim.
He was having a basketball tournament
and I forced him to go to somewhere peace,
I just needed to tell him about this.

When I told him,
his response was even more heartbreaking.
He told me to decide on my own.
I cried and cried.
I've never been this sad.
Having to get married with someone
I didn't know
and the things me and Qim had to end,
just like that.

I cried,
then my phone rang.
It was Qim, again?

Well it was a great relief this time,
because everything above was just a nightmare!!!

And this time,
Qim called for real!
So I told Qim everything about my dream
and I kept on repeating
"sedihkan? cakap la sedih kannn?"

And guess what was his reply?

"Okay, we should kahwin now. Before that thing happens."

Nice joke you got there, Qim.
A-level pun tak habis lagi. *smirk*


Life after IB


I still have 10s of Ilmfest session notes that I haven't posted.
I'm still working on them, insyaAllah.

Anyhow, I'm done with IB yeah!! Alhamdulillah!!
I am a free girl now, well not really but for the first
time in 2 years, I go home without homeworkss.

Invictus Dinner was, awesome and memorable.
I didn't eat much tho but it's the people that I met that
made my nite.

Then, we had BTN!

Biro Tatanegara at Kuarters KLIA. I didn't know much about
my country till that program and it wasn't bad at all.

If people said the program was to influence people to support
government, I would say they're wrong.
Instead, it's a program to make us love our country more.

Despite my contract with TNB, I still feel like I'm going to
serve back my nation, no matter what.

Because the money (scholarship) that I use now,
is definitely not my money.
It's the people's money.
I owe them, a lot.

I don't think I am that capable of being the Prime Minister
and Qim definitely doesn't want to become one hahaha,
hence I can't be the First
Lady,
but hey, you don't have to be a politician to serve a nation, right?

I would want to announce my 3 month-business! Yeay!
The product is a surprise! But insyaAllah, some of the profit will be donated to
NGOs that handle humanitarian program.

This Wednesday's products will be an effort to help Malaysia4Syria collecting funds to help
our Muslim brothers and sisters in Syria, insyaAllah.

May Allah ease everything :D