I am going to Canada!

27/8/2015 | 11.30am

Narita, Tokyo!

So, I am here, for 10 hours, because I have to take the connecting flight to Toronto, for idk another how many hours journey.

Yesterday was damn tough for me tho.

I cried an ocean! I just can’t stop crying and the feeling was terrible, and worse than what I felt when I had to register for ssp in 2008.

I am the homesick kinda kid, and my homesick is the worst among my siblings and I’m the eldest.

I wonder, why tho. Haha but anyhow, I feel better now, slightly. Because the 7 hours flight was filled with malas-nak-fikir-so-i-sleep, and when I was awake, I cried.

I brought my favourite jersey on plane and it made me cry more. Lol.

I was so terharu looking at the people who came to send me off, my family and friends and I was nervous because of two things.

1. I will be going to Canada, not going to see my family for a year.

2. Qim will meet my dad for the first time!

Second one went well, I hope. I hope my dad likes him as much as I do. Even tho my dad would definitely say, long way to go, haha but at least the first stage is done!

One thing about studying abroad, you have to sacrifice your family time, ugh and I’ve been doing that since I was 12.

I hope it will be will be worth it. LONG WAY TO GO! 4 YEARS ARE NOT THAT LONG, KAN? 

I miss my family already.

This time it is worse sebab I cannot go back every weekend!!!!

But good thing is, this is my very first time in Tokyo-o-o

and it doesn't feel like Japan-ish at all. I should spend my coins now. Hm what should I buy…*cheeky face* oh wait, I need to save up to go back to Malaysia hahaha

Okay, I want to continue layan   this boy who misses me a lot :P LAter <3

One of My Lyfe Principle

There's always misconception

between what you believe in and how you react in life.

It saddened me to see

when a girl wasn't allowed to

enter surau to pray just because of what she wore.

I don't blame the authority, nor the girl.

We shall always respect our praying place,

follow the dress code etc,

indeed.

But to rudely do not allow her to be in the praying room,

and to humiliate her;

that's not right, people.

In Islam,

we're not allowed to humiliate others, 

judge others and there're always ways to correctly advise those who sin.

We do sin, we all do;

but we're human after all.

Do the sinful believers have the right to talk about God?

Ofc we do :)

None taken

I like reading people's blogs,

it's just me getting to know others' life.

It's not the judging-time for me,

personally it's about exploring other people's life,

that could be more interesting than mine haha.

I remember in my english class

(IB time)

we had to know the exact format of

blogging, writing diaries etc.

Diary is so much of personal,

like a self-reflection kind of thing.

Blogging, is like expressing your views on certain things.

Guess I do mix both of them here;

that's because I don't spend on diaries anymore :(

(what a sad confession)

So, pardon my too-personal-lyfe-stories posted here.

You can always decide not to read this blog anymore :)

No offense.

Life

I am blessed to have such a wonderful life. 

Life is not an easy journey, and I don't have a specific destination to begin with. 

I am just following my guts and the fate that has been set for me.

When I was a form 3 student, I had a scrapbook. 

And tones of diaries. 

I always pasted pictures of my dream uni ; oxford uni

 (after all, who do not dream of going there, right?), 

I wrote about my dreams. I was so ambitious, 

how I wish I could be one till now. 

I labelled myself as idealistic, and it was true.

I wanted to be a cardiologist or a gynaecologist so badly,

 but after I got my spm result, things changed.

I realize that biology is not my cup of tea.

 I prefer physics, and so for every scholarship I applied, 

it's all about engineering.

I looked up to my dad the most.

 His turning point in life is something that inspires me to keep going in life till now, 

and as I grow older, 

I realize that we have a similarity; that is to prove our worth.

Being the eldest child is never a piece of cake;

 people always expect a lot from you, 

you just have to reach that expectation 

and expectation is definitely the root of heartache. 

If you do reach the expectation, 

people will still question why can't you be better?

 What more if you don't hmm

My dad works with an oil and gas company, 

and I want to do so too!

 It's fun to see him traveling here and there, 

but God has a different plan for me 

and I received YTN scholarship, 

such a great blessing for me. 

And I'm going to McGill University, Canada, 

will be pursuing my degree in 

Electrical Power (EP) Engineering end of this month.

Look! 

The journey is all different from my initial plan.

 And again, the matter of a believer is strange, 

we will always try to find something good in everything we face. 

I do too.

YTN scholarship is on a par with other giant companies 

like Petronas, Bank Negara, PNB, UEM and ExxonMobil. 

McGill University is the Harvard of Canada, 

it's the best university in Canada and one of the best in the world.

 I will have to do EP and I am guaranteed with job after I graduate.

I am more than thankful. 

I have to say, it's not easy for me to be where I am today. 

With Allah's guidance, my parents' support, 

my grandparents' prayers, 

the hope to inspire my siblings 

and the dreams that might change here and there a bit along the journey 

but with an ultimate life goal that I always have in life 

that is to make my parents' proud of me, I still survive till now. 

I hope these kind of values still remain in me till forever. 

And I hope I can achieve my ultimate life goal, one day.