I haven't been blogging for 2 months+ and
as much as I feel like
no one is missing my post,
I do miss blogging!
What's up with the silence?
Oh well, engineering life.
Really, this semester,
is when every hard work begins.
Last two semesters were a total joke.
I had been complaining and crying
in my first year,
but hey, last year I was just crying a river.
This time around, I cry like Niagara Falls, no kidding.
I didn't sign up for this life,
but I guess this is the consequences of me
signing up for engineering life.
So many things happened,
long story short,
my hair is falling out so badly,
crying is my weekly ritual,
I eat supper thrice a day,
I don't have breakfast cause I am late most of the time,
I failed some of my labs,
I failed a midterm,
I don't get to blog as much
and I only call my parents twice a week.
It sounds bad, ey?
I also have good stories to share, no worry ;)
I cook weekly,
main dishes range from western to eastern food,
desserts and I don't eat junk food on weekly basis anymore!
I only do, once a month, max!
I started to learn that
islamophobia is real but I have Allah to protect me all the time,
so I don't have to feel overwhelmed by it.
I have great friends
that will always support me,
and I don't have a need to increase my circle of friends anymore,
I will just appreciate those I have now,
I follow my financial budget,
and everything is well-planned now.
I really take everything in a positive way,
ie when I failed certain things,
they don't let me down, rather they push me to work harder the next time.
I dance whenever I want,
I feel happy whenever I see my friends' posts on Instagram,
I am happy that they're happy with their life.
I have days when I miss my best friends terribly,
and I will randomly call, or text or stalk them on Instagram, or comment
on their InstaStory with hopes that they will miss me too :P
I watch all of my summer vlogs whenever I wanna feel close to home,
cause we will not have a chance to be together for a longer time now,
since Atika is in Australia, I am in Canada and the rest are in different states of Malaysia.
I always watch Amigas videos on youtube whenever I miss them
and I am trying so hard to not forget anyone's name.
I watch Hindustani movies whenever I feel like watching them.
I drink a lot of water these days
and I always do my skin care routine.
I only had makeup on my face for less than 5 times in these two months,
I only put on makeup when I have occasions
cause I believe that my skin will be better, much much better without
having to constantly hide my scars and pimples.
I take pictures of buildings and sceneries
and upload them to Instagram, not to brag about anything
but my Instagram feed is like my online photo journal.
Because I will leave Canada one day,
and I will miss every moment I have here.
I constantly remind myself that
I don't have to work as an engineer for the rest of my life,
but the lessons that I gain throughout this journey of mine,
will definitely make me a better person,
businesswoman and whichever position that I want to hold in the future.
Whenever I feel like complaining about 1 thing,
I will remind myself of 5 other blessings in life that Allah has sent me.
And most of the time, I will reflect on
what used to be my dreams, and now I have achieved them,
ie to study at McGill University.
Alhamdulillah for everything that happens in my life.
I hope you are doing fine with your life too!
Love,
Aliah
