Who's Pan?




I’ve been inserting this name for a few times in my blog and his full name is Peter Pan. Nope, he’s a guy named after Peter Pan. Yes, that Peter Pan who never lands, lol. He’s not the real Peter Pan because he doesn’t have Tinker Bell by his side, well at least that’s what I’m hoping for, duh! I self-proclaim myself as Wendy in this context because I like blue dress and I love love love kids! I love telling stories too! And my Pan, he loves to listen to my stories. When he starts telling stories, they truly sound like bedtime stories haha I mean, they’re very entertaining but too bad as they usually come after my stories, and I already got tired of talking lol.

Unlike the fairytale of Pan who never wanted to grow up, this Pan grows up and older. I’m thankful for that! He’s brave enough to meet my parents and grandparents even without my presence. He has bigger hopes and dreams, because he truly acknowledges the demanding Wendy and  he has to put up with my needs and wantsssssss. Did I tell you that he (and Mimi) granted my wish to meet Fattah Amin????


me featuring FATTAH AMIN!

Pan granting another wish of mine (dUCk hehehehhehe)


He has high level of tolerance, he doesn’t necessarily agree with me all the time, but he has his way of telling me that I did something wrong without making me feel bad. He feels bad about it all the time, lol. I’m sorry :P The truest definition of complicated woman is me. Because I don’t have my mind straight. At times I don’t know what I want exactly at that point of time. And at one point, I really know what I want but what I want is extremely impossible to get/achieve at that particular time. A friend used to wonder who would dare to be my boyfriend because I’m that kind of girl (very hard to deal with). Then, Pan came into the picture and all my friends are amazed by his magic touch (oh well, he touches my heart :P). 

My parents have given him the green light, my grandparents have told me to stay loyal. My best friends told me that he’s a good choice of boyfriend (not that I have choices, lol) and my best friend’s mom has warned him to take a great care of me *blow my nails*.

As for now, I thank God for his existence and I hope God will lend me one of His wonderful creations for a longer time, long enough till we have great grandchildren :) 

Who’s Pan? He’s that one special person that’s so close to my heart. He’s the love of my life and I hope there’s no other person that could replace his place. 



What do I think of girl having guy best friend?




I know a lot of girl friends with guy best friends. I think it’s possible. A girl once fell for her best friend, they broke up but they still remain best friends after the period of mending the broken hearts haha. A friend of mine has a guy friend but the guy used to like her, and she confronted him, they drew the line and they remain best friends. Another friend already has a 5-year friendship with a guy, very close buddies and no ‘more than best friends’ intention arises. I think it’s possible for a girl to have a guy best friend even if the girl already has a boyfriend and same goes to the girl. You can keep being best friends as long as one person doesn’t cross the line and protect the friendship that you have. ( Some dramas might happen, but you just gotta enjoy the fun part of the dramas! :P)

As for me, my boyfriend will be my best friend, future life partner and he needs to listen to me nagging all the time haha because I prefer it that way :)


How do you wish to inspire people now and in the future?



YTN camp is an eye-opening experience for me. The camp was organized at Hotel Sri Malaysia, Bagan Lalang for 5 days and 4 nights. The activities were mainly the outdoor ones. A day before the camp, I caught a cold and it was so bad that I had to go to the clinic for doctor’s advice. Most of the time, I was being the doctor, taking paracetamol like I know the right dose, lol. But this time, I just couldn’t stand it anymore.


So, while at the camp, I needed to inform YTN officers and the facilitators about my condition. I had fever and I told them about me having asthma. 
Well, I didn’t get any privilege lol I didn’t want to, ofc cause outdoor activities can be fun! But my health constraints could be dangerous. When I was in Banting, my asthma was severe, maybe it was because of the air condition. 

Back to my YTN story, I was inspired by one of TNB VPs, Dato’ Roslina binti Zainal. Her speech inspired, and still inspires me to study well, graduate as an engineer, come back and serve the nation. I also learned that we will be the best version of ourselves when we’re not in our comfort zone. 

I remembered the very first YTN camp at PD, the camp which made me feel intimidated because I knew no one there. But the last YTN, which was the final camp that I attended before I graduate made me realize that those people that I spent my time with will be my colleagues, will be my future TNB family. They’re my networkings, my friends and together we might be the leaders of TNB in the future.

I wish to inspire people, especially girls that we too can become engineers of big companies. Kak Long, Shen Mi and Michelle are the three girls that I respect and appreciate while at the camp. I wasn’t feeling well and they took care of me like I was their own sisters. And I hope this relationship will last till the end. 

In the future, I hope I can be one of the TNB leaders that can come back to YTN camp and inspire them with my story. I may not be the best person to advice people, but I hope my story can help changing someone in becoming a better person.

I think I can be an introvert and extrovert, depends on the situation I’m going through. I realize that now I’m in my comfort zone, I haven’t pushed myself to the limit, I’m too scared to try something new. 

Since after the camp, I must have deep thoughts on something new that I want to do, to change myself, to be out of my comfort zones.

As for now, I’m trying to stay fit and healthy. I’m doing 30 minutes of exercises every day, and we’ll see how could that improve my IQ and EQ lol.